doing this

i'd really like to be doing this often. i don't know what i do, meanwhile, which evidently, whatever it is, keeps me so busy that i can't be doing this.

it could be work. it could be, if not the actual work itself, the work-related stress. there's been a good bit of that this year, more so than before, and i'm not sure what that means for the future. it's easy to feel beat up in my line of work, and hard to feel appreciated, but it's what i do. the thing is, and i think this is the real deal, i hate with a firey passion incompetent adults, or adults who are stupid, or adults who say stupid things, or adults who are rude, and it seems to be that i deal with a lot of them in my day-to-day workings and goings on. oh well. the kids are my favorite people anyways.

i'd like to be doing this more often, because i feel like a contributor when i do. contributing is pretty critical when you think about the whole thing.

i'd like to be doing other things too:
1. running, and any distance at all would suffice at this point
2. reading good and meaningful books
3. sitting outside, because the new patio furniture is nice and i built the table myself
4. preparing for the poland/israel trip this summer, because i'm excpecting it to be life altering, and because they sent me a big reading list which coincidentally might help with #2 on this list
5. finding myself, and maybe the previously listed item will part of the beginning of that, and we'll see

funny story: the other day i got out of the shower and i picked up my hand towel instead of the real one, and i only realized that i had the wrong towel when i tried to put it around my head to hold my hair (like girls do) and it wouldn't fit, and i was like "wtf."

funny story no. 2: the other day i came home and i said, "elizabeth did you put that shoulder bag in my room at work?" and she said, "no." and i said, "are you sure?" and she said, "yes i am." and then five minutes later she said, "did you get that bag i put in your room." and then i said, "wtf."

mildly upsetting thing related to television: i used to really love emily van camp when she played amy on everwood, so when she got cast on brothers and sisters, i was so excited. until of course she started behaving very inappropriately, like she did last week when she hit on her new long-lost sister's husband. and this was upsetting because amy would've never done anything like that, and everybody knows it.

today i'm glad because i did this. and it is just whatever it is.